Let's see where to start... Yesterday was a pretty numb day until church when it exploded out of me and I finally cried... We got the results yesterday to Hunter's MRI the good news first his skull looks beautiful and he will not need that surgery ever again!!! But later in life he may still need the jaw done and soon he will have to have another surgery for the eyes. But the bad news they found that he has acute ill-defined cereborvascular disease ( something about the blood not being able to circulate and causeing those veins to die in the brain, it is seen alot in stroke patients) we go see the neuro-surgeon later today to see how this is going to affect him and how to treat it. Also Addison gets checked at the same time as Hunter always because she came after Hunter and the Dr. just keeps a close eye on her, well she is going for an MRI as soon as I can get one scheduled her soft spot is now completely closed also and it shouldn't be so the Dr. doesn't think she would have the whole diagnosis of Hunter but just part of it the increased pressure in the brain. Which can be treated just as Hunter's was. Yesterday I just wanted to run away. I couldn't believe all the news I got and I was just numb I couldn't cry I actually laughed on the phone with my mom about it and she asked me what in the world was wrong with me.... No I don't think it is funny but I just couldn't put a grasp at that moment on it all. I couldn't help but ask God why? why is this happening? I told God I was done I couldn't handle anymore! I told him he was wrong he was giving more then I could handle! He said no!! I argued for almost an hour.... I didn't let it sink in til church last night in our fusion groups and the tears came I could barely talk, but I needed that and I still wonder why all this stuff has to keep happening but I know there is so much more for Hunter and Addison so much more for our family and all I can do is trust in God and be obdeient to him (even when I really don't want to) God has done so much for us (everyday). Through him all things are possible, and I won't give up!!!! On another note I did it guys I went and took my TABE test prior to finding all this out. It took about 2 hours not bad my dad kept the kids for me.... I passed the reading and language parts with a perfect score math on the other hand the applied math I did ok missed a couple but the math comp I did BAD so in two weeks I have to go re-take just the math part because I have to have a 12 in all areas of the test or they will not except me in the LPN program. Math is so hard always been a weak subject for me..... But I am doing it and my son is helping me he is encourageing me everyday (Devon of course) I am so proud to see the little man he is turning into. Again I ask for prayer for our family! Thank you!