I know I haven't wrote in forever! Just haven't really want to talk about things... I think hopeing if I avoided thinking or speaking of things they would just disappear...(it doesn't work!) So where to start no word on Hunter right now, Easter sunday is comeing fast, but still have faith in God that Hunter is once again gonna be healed! Addison's test seem to be all comeing back normal YEAH!!! Couple more to go... Now the real stressful situation I don't think I have really talked about this at all but a few months ago I let my two youngest ones father move into our house because financially needed help bad and that is really that only way he will help me... (such a bad idea) I don't know what I was thinking, well I do I wanted my kids to be secure in where they live and have food and etc. what I didn't think about was what is was going to do to me... I choose not to be with this man due to the way he was to me and I guess I thought he had changed no he hasn't! He still just drains me of all energy... I could be on the biggest high from church and walk in the door and it's instantly sucked out of me by an insult thrown my way... which happens over and over so I finally asked him to leave last week I have agreed to give him a week or two to find a place but I'm worried about the bills again, I have been putting this in my prayers alot and no matter how much I could use his help I can't use his negetive and draining attitude to me. It doesn't just affect me it affects my little ones to! Devon has been the one that it is noticable with his attitude. And this is all just as friends! But on the other hand I have finally gotten a very dear friend to go to church!!!! YEAH!!!!! I have known him for two years, and have asked him numerous times to come to church with me and the kids... and I always got no way you will never get me to church! Well out of the blue about three weeks ago he asked more details about going I was so excited I was jumping up and down!!! And he likes it... This week has been so busy though with Kidzturn but man is it worth every moment... my kids are so excited about going it just makes me so happy! Hunter goes on and on about Elmer till he falls out... the first night he kept saying eat chicken save whopper over and over and over.... the second night it was him singing the bug song over and over...tonight he screams and kicked and threw a fit because he wanted to watch Elmer as he was going to bed (so I have to find out if I can video Elmer tommorrow for him to watch on a regular basis) because they don't have any videos foe sale I checked... but I love that my kids get so much joy out of worshiping the Lord it is awesome!!! And I think it is a blast to!!! Anyone that has not come yet there is one more night you shouldn't miss it! Starts at 7!

It's been a pretty good weekend except for late late last night Hunter was haveing a hard time breatheing so we ended up being up all night and I didn't wake up until 10:45 so I missed church which really sucks we never miss church.... but I think I really needed the extra sleep because I rarely sleep late even when I am able to. We had an awesome day yesterday we went to my Best friends sons b-day party and jumped in one of those jumpy things all day and hung out and laughed and joked around. ( Christina and Ben are the kind of friends thta no matter what we do it is the time of your life) They are just really good people and it's good clean friend and I really don't have many friends anymore due to the things they find fun I don't anymore... Devon stayed the night there so I was minus one child YEAH!!!!! And one of my good friends that I haven't hung out with in along time came with me to the party so that was cool to. It was just a great day. But I am so sore this morning from jumping in that thing, that is some good exercise!!! Well just wanted ti stop in a drop a few lines but I have to get back to cleaning, so I can sit down at 3:30 and watch the race gotta watch my Jimmie Johnson.... (He's the best!) Hope everyone had a great weekend also.... God Bless!